because someone might get hurt .

You look perfect

I know it is weird to post this stuff. I'm not judging you because I love you or I want you. I'm judging because I know it is true. You might be paranoia about your overdress but you know .. you look perfect in those outfit. Some people might not see how elegant you are in those combination. At least I do.






I miss you.

Nicotine

When I get stress, I smoke cigarette . It makes me feels better even though the taste is bitter. It is like you eat all the ugly things happened to you.

Nicotine

When I get stress, I smoke cigarette . It makes me feels better even though the taste is bitter. It is like you eat all the ugly things happened to you.

Help Cybergame Challenge

Ops, just registered. O.o"

name name for new blog

gonna change the link again.

hhehehe arief can't read this blog. muahah : p

sorry arief, I will tell you later. haha :D

New hope

I'm not sure whether I can finish this project or not.

It scared me a lot.

I don't have much ideas and experiences

What if I can't finish it on time ?

please give me strength. :(

yes I make something for you : #

It's my sekret project.

singgah

I stayed in my friend's house for a week next to the MMU Cyber. The place was awesome even though the place is messy , tau lahh rumah bujang kan. what do you expect. They always run out of gas and they prefer delivery food than cook by themselves. Yes, I like their nasi goreng indo. very nice. sedap lah. It was fun staying there for a week because they have lots of guitar. I liked adrin plays guitar. Dia power okayyy. Respect. haha he is one of our entertainer because we all liked to watch him playing guitar and he can sing very well if he wants to . since my laptop iz vewy lopek so I can't play latest games : ( . So i watched my friends playing online games. haha the most shocking part was watching jiman playing dragonica. huk olohh muka ganas main dragonica(game mcm maple cuma 3d ). haha

The space iz vewy big too. It feels you have your own house which you need to take care of bills and everything. it is kinda cool. : O

and you can bring anything or anyone you wanted to. It's cool right.

last week, we were accompanied by two girls. yeah, gf kawan2 aku. they slept there for few days only. like me lo singgah sekejap but I don't mind at all. It's uni life anything can happen and I don't judge people . hehe so guys do as you wish, it's your house pun.

I didn't know they like weed very much. Kim brought someone back, The guy who will take weed with him. eventually, the guy was my school mate during form 5. wah lama tak nampak doh. He invited me to take some but I politely refused. I might not ready to take those stuffs @_@ it still looks scary to me. haha. I watched them take the weed using bong. haha Bau dia busukk .

I watched some of them drank in front of me. Haha, I don't really care. Like I told you I don't judge people. They are good and cool friends. luckily this time they did not offer me. the alcohol bau tak sedap sgt pun.

In the end, It was a fun week after all. Cheers to all my friends for made my week. :)

Faith.Believe.Hope

I believe someday this hope will bring me to you and I never lost faith on you.

Inception

watched Inception yesterday. The movie was awesome. It twists your mind completely. dream inside a dream . I realized something, what if the world I live right now is a dream . Maybe i'm lying on the bed outside there waiting to wake up or something. I feel like I lost my senses everyday . Sometimes, I feel like my brain become weaker day by day. My head become heavier and cloudy. In scientific theory, I lack of oxygen and I think it is true because I can't breathe properly due to my favorite sickness all the time -flu. In mathematical theory , I need an equation to solve this problem but i haven't found the equation i needed.

If it is a dream please wake me up.

ohaiyo

I'm not abandon my blog. I have a lot things to say but I don't know where to start and I just don't know what to write. sorry . :(

Surrender

Go and fly like a bird. You are free now . enjoy every moments of your life. hope we will meet again someday .

: /

another "not happy" dreams this morning and evening : /

haihh

hushed nights inside heart

Do you know how it feels when you wake up and started missing the person you can't have?

Brain can't stop thinking and wondering and imagine , blood moving fast inside arteries, aorta carries and distributes oxygen rich blood, heart is pumping hard and harder, lungs expand and contract vigorously. You feel sad and lonely. sometimes, you smile because of memories but you still feel sad. The empty side inside your heart , some parts are crumbled down and some parts are still standing but fragile. That is hope. hoping something is nearly impossible.

When the heavy winds collided, you feel the pain. lungs expand and contract, heart is pumping slow and slower, blood moving slowly inside arteries and brain can't stop produce more memories to feed the pain. You feel like someone is pulling your heart's string every second. When you can't take it anymore you cry wishing the pain will go away.

This is how i felt every time i missed you.I infrequently crying outside but crying inside, always.

Just want to say Happy Thirty-two months sayang. I hope you are happy with your life. Take care, I love you so much. oh I miss you so much (:

until next time,

helmi.

smaller than ants

Appreciate small things.because from small things turn into big and bigger.

twilight in a ball room

What would you do if you woke up at 3 am in the morning ?

As me for today, I would reminisced us and our past. The memories I collected with you. I found a Birthday card I received around 4 January 2008. I like your handwriting it is small and unique. Beautiful.

Do you remember the first time we dance together ?

We were trying to imitate Edward and Bella dancing at ball. How you step on my foot and we were moving in awkward ways while trying to create a music by humming. You might say "ewww" when you read this. hahaha. As for me, It was fun and seeing you smiling like that it would be my pleasure to dance with you again dear :)

Climbing climber

I need 6 months to prove myself that I'm worth it.

wish me luck .

In the mean time, I will try my best not to break this beautiful bond.

Defense of The Ancient

Yeahh,You see the title ? this post is all about DoTA. The craziest and addictive game everrr! This game needs tactical, teamwork and good timing. Most boys have played DoTA before. I started to play DoTA since I was in Form 4, Introduced by Awis and Faliq. After that, I played with Imran, Zaff and the other sbu and sbs boys. Yes, I was a noob back then, Kena tapau with Imran and sbu boys. -__--
It's okay, everyone starts from noob to pro.

When I entered SAB, My old friend, Nabil insisted me to play DoTA with him. I went to a cc near to his house. and kena tapau again dgn Nabil and my friends. Oh malu nya. -__-
Then, We started to play garena. It is much easier to play since I don't need to go to the cc just to play DoTA. I can play at home with my friends by using garena as a medium. I started to learn how to use all hero at garena. I'm getting pro-er day by day. I spent at least 6 hours on weekend playing DoTA. Main dengan Nabil, Syafiq(Adik Nabil) and Aryl. It was fun and lots of drama. Yes, DoTA has it own drama. ohh yea, it's true.

After Spm, I'm trying to stop playing DoTA. Yes, It works because I'm started to play Sudden Attack. FPS game . FPS stands for First Person Shooting. I don't want to explain more about Sudden Attack since this post is all about DoTA. Only DoTA! Spell with me D-o-T-A.

But It won't last long. When I entered MMU for further studies, MMU throttled all online games. Nampak nya tak dpt lah main Sudden Attack! Oh noo! Disaster! lepas tu dapat lah tahu Bnet wujud dkt MMU. Bnet ialah salah satu medium untuk bermain DoTA dengan player lain.

Start lah main DoTA macam orang gila. I met new people, some of them are pro and some are noob. Oh some of them are very langsi. Huish, Flame troll other people tanak kalah weh. -___-. It won't last long too, Until Ayiesha scolded and merajuk with me because I'm playing DoTA too much. berhenti lah lagi. hehe which is good to have someone who cares about you :) Thank you very much. (: (: (:

In this past few days, I was boring and I started to play DoTA. Oh,I owned most of the games. I feel satisfied and refreshing and langsi sedikit. Yes I langsi people but in a good way. I didn't scolded my teammates or cakap people noob. that's harsh. semua org noob dlu then baru pro. yeah It's a bad langsi. :3
I cuma cakap;
"Turn on me dead man" - bila dpt bunuh hero.
"turn them on dead man" - bila tgh/habis war and win the wars.
"miss him miss him miss him" - saying this to my teammates who falls in the battles.
"the art of lucifer" - bila org ckp wow pro nya pkai cheat apa?

yes, these words ada unsur illuminati and i took it from backmasking lyrics.
oh some replied "turn you on dead man de." esp when he/she killed me after that. whooppsss. my bad!

sooooo, My fav heroes at the moment are .. *DRUM ROLLS!*

Mirana Nightshade- Priestess of the Moon

A matriarch and high priestess of Elune's blessed order, Mirana Nightshade serves as a light in darkness for the front line of the Sentinel ranks, raining arrows and falling stars alike upon the shambling undead masses of the Undead Scourge, while her very presence is said to be so holy that it melts away the fatigue of nearby allies, giving them greater haste on the battlefield. In times of need however, she can fade herself and others around her into the safety of invisibility, making her a potent supporter matched by few.

Starfall

Calls down a wave of meteors to damage each nearby enemy. If enemy is farther than 600 range, it has a 60% chance to still hit him. One random enemy unit within 200 aoe will get hit again for half the damage.

Level 1 - 75 damage per wave.
Level 2 - 150 damage per wave.
Level 3 - 225 damage per wave.
Level 4 - 300 damage per wave.

Elune's Arrow

Fires an arrow to a location with deadly precision, dealing large damage and stunning the first unit it strikes. Stun duration increases based on how far the target is, ranging from 0.5 to 5 seconds.

Level 1 - Deals 90 damage.

Level 2 - Deals 180 damage.
Level 3 - Deals 270 damage.
Level 4 - Deals 360 damage.

Cooldown: 25 seconds.

Leap

Mirana's wild Frostsaber leaps forward into battle, empowering allies with a ferocious roar upon landing. Movement and Attack Speed bonus lasts 10 seconds.

Level 1 - 400 range. 4% speed increase.
Level 2 - 450 range. 8% speed increase.
Level 3 - 500 range. 12% speed increase.
Level 4 - 550 range. 16% speed increase.

Cooldown: 40/35/30/20

Moonlight Shadow

Turns Nightshade and all allied heroes invisible. If Invisiblity is broken, it gets restored after the fade time during the shadow duration.

Level 1 - Lasts 7 seconds. 2.5 second fade time.
Level 2 - Lasts 9 seconds. 2 second fade time.
Level 3 - Lasts 11 seconds. 1.5 second fade time.

Cooldown: 160 seconds.

This hero is very versatile and flexible and easy to use. urm except when you want to shoot the arrow. It needs skill and luck. The arrow skill makes her a fearsome hero. All you need to do is lock enemy's hero and wait for a good timing to shoot the arrow. stun duration increases based on how far the target is. When, It hits enemy's hero quickly run to him and cast starfall and hit him few times. When he try to run away, Leap and chase him down. By the time, you chase him, starfall is already cooldown. cast the skill. voila! You pawned him (:

You have to predict the enemy's movement before you cast the arrow skill. Banyak boleh buat dgn hero ni, you can shoot arrow backward. cool kan, or shoot and leap at the same time. woots!

This hero never bore me. I always choose this hero. ;)

Ulfsaar- Ursa Warrior

Before the invasion of the Scourge, a race of intelligent bears called furbolgs cultivated a quiet spiritual society deep in the heart of Azshara. With most of their kind murdered and corrupted by the Undead, the normally isolated furbolgs were forced to flee to the Sentinel for protection. In revenge, the furbolgs have sent their mightiest Ursa Warrior into battle on those who dare to disturb them again. Enraged by the defilement of his people's sacred land, Ulfsaar is able to channel his fury into a series of extremely quick and brutal swipes, using his razor-sharp claws to overpower his foes and literally tear them apart.

Earthshock

Slams the ground, dealing damage to and slowing the movement speed of nearby enemy land units.
Lasts 4 seconds.

Level 1 - 70 damage, 25% slow.
Level 2 - 120 damage, 35% slow.
Level 3 - 170 damage, 45% slow.
Level 4 - 220 damage, 55% slow.

Cooldown: 7 seconds.

Overpower

Sends Ulfsaar into a rage until he can expend his energy on a target. 400% increased attack speed. Lasts up to 15 seconds or when his attack limit is reached.

Level 1 - 3 attacks.
Level 2 - 4 attacks.
Level 3 - 5 attacks.
Level 4 - 6 attacks.

Fury Swipes

Each attack opens the wound deeper in the target, causing subsequent attacks to deal increased damage.

Level 1 - 6 bonus damage per attack.
Level 2 - 12 bonus damage per attack.
Level 3 - 18 bonus damage per attack.
Level 4 - 24 bonus damage per attack.

Orb effects do not stack

Enrage

When activated, greatly increases Ulfsaar's damage based on his current life.

Level 1 - 4% of Ulfsaar's current life is dealt in damage.
Level 2 - 5% of Ulfsaar's current life is dealt in damage.
Level 3 - 6% of Ulfsaar's current life is dealt in damage.

Cooldown: 25 seconds.

Oh, This hero is a gay hero. He is a fearsome hero because of his second , third and his ulti skills is really damn gay! His second skill 400% speed for 6 attacks. mcm 2 seconds lay down 6 attacks! + third skill fury swipes , first attack gives extra 24 damages , second attacks gives extra 24 times 2 damages . bayang kan 6 attacks 24 times 6 = extra 144 damages. + with his ulti 6% of current life. what if you have about 1.5k hp divide by 6/100 + yr current normal damage + extra 144 damages! -__---- wthh, gayy gilaa sialll . Don't give me this hero because you might lose . haha, I just need good teammates with good teamworks. that's all. Oh, Ingat lagi bila I guna ursa and dia guna Mirana . He leaped after destroy the first tower at top. pegi nyorok hutan konon. since I have a kelen dagger (blink dagger) , I blinked beside him and he said " oh shit!". and I said "oh no" hahahaha. He died in 4 seconds! hehe. Whosyourdaddy now little pussy! after killed him, I said "Turn me on dead man" . haha! oh and another one, I bought force staff guna untuk push hero or enemy hero forward according to his direction. mcm ni, My teammate and I fought Dragon Knight, his hp's red and he stunned me. my teammate chased him and tried to kill him, I used force staff on myself and pushed me towards the DK(dragon Knight) and I ks'ed my teammate ops sorry. last hit! hehe. It was funn! actually, force staff is not ursa's item. beli pun sebab nk main2 and kena kan teammate . haha. seriously, perlu kan teamwork and teammates yg bagus je and early game kena jadi good farmer. :) Oh I rarely choose Ursa. I got ursa because of random pick -_--

Okay lahh, I will update soon in DoTA part 2 okay. Panjang sangat dah ni. karang korang lari dari blog ni. haha.

Oh, Jarang main DoTA main pun bila ada kawan ajak main. If not, I will waste my time on books . grhh ; <

Here I come, FireAce is back with his few new nick names :p

until next time,

Helmi,

Fantastic Mr Fox

"hey say all foxes are slightly allergic to linoleum, but it's cool to the paw - try it. They say my tail needs to be dry cleaned twice a month, but now it's fully detachable - see? They say our tree may never grow back, but one day, something will. Yes, these crackles are made of synthetic goose and these giblets come from artificial squab and even these apples look fake - but at least they've got stars on them. I guess my point is, we'll eat tonight, and we'll eat together. And even in this not particularly flattering light, you are without a doubt the five and a half most wonderful wild animals I've ever met in my life. So let's raise our boxes - to our survival."

Mr Fox

have you ever heard this quote before ? If you watch Fantastic Mr Fox movie you will listen this at the end of the movie when Mr Fox give a speech toast. You should watch this movie. It is an awesome movie. I would like to give them kudos for a brilliant movie !

The story is about Mr. Fox and his wild-ways of hen heckling, turkey taking and cider sipping, nocturnal instinctive adventures. He has to put his wild days behind him and do what fathers do best ; be responsible. He is too rebellious and wild. He is going to try "just one more raid" on the three nastiest, meanest farmers which are Boggis, Bunce and Bean. It is a tale of crossing the line of family responsibilities, midnight adventure, the friendships, awakenings of this country life that is inhabited by Fantastic Mr Fox and his friends.

The story begins with Mr Fox and his wife, Felicity raiding a squab farm and trigger a fox trap and become caged. Felicity reveals to Mr. Fox that she is pregnant and pleads to find a safer job if they escape.

This is Mr Fox. He is very cunning and intelligent. ;)

The three nastiest, meanest farmers; Boggis , Bean , Bunce

Kristofferson and Ash. They're trying to find Mr.Fox's missing Tails.

It's a good movie after all. 9/10 :)

credits to Ayiesha for introduced me this movie <>

untill next time;

Helmi,

5.30 AM

You might be thinking what's happening at 5.30AM. or ...

Maybe you don't care at all..

*silence*,

Boys and girls ! there is an announcement that I would to announce. *DRUM ROLLS*

Yes, there is something happening at 5.30 AM!

*silence again*,

err. I was woke up at 5.30AM and I went to shit. Hahaha! don't show me eww face. ;(
to make a story more interesting, I started to play my laptop in dark while others sleeping after I done *poop* . *be nice with word Mi ;)*

Then I received a post from my cous at fb. I was stupid for not thinking the website he posted to me is a prank website. I pressed and a girl ghost came out screaming loudly. I was like shit!! I mean *poop*. After that I ran and switched on the light. One of my roommates woke up and do some annoying sound. Haha I was like "sorryy sorry" then he went to sleep back. Pranks at 5.30 AM is not fun at all especially when you in the dark and alone. ; < *Yawnn, maybe I should sleep too. (:

goodnight .


until next ti zzzzz,

Helmi,

Prologue

Bonjour Mesdames et Messieurs!

Welcome to this blog. Everyone take a deep breathe and read carefully. For the introduction, Let me tell you my name. The name given by Muhammad Zulhelmi. You can call me Zul , Helmi or anything you like. I don't mind as long it is appropriate name.(: I was born in a year of 1991, Goat year in Chinese calender. I'm a Capricorn since I was born in 30th December. Get it? guess when is my birthday ? :p


I'm might not be a tallest person or a heaviest person, I'm might not be a cutest person or a ugliest person, I'm might not be a smartest person or a dumbest person. See, I'm not that bad. :) want to know more about me ?


I'm a second child in my family, I do have a big brother and a small sister.You know, I like to talk crap but rarely talk shit cause I hate it. It is hypocrite if I say I never talk shit before cause everyone is not perfect yo'. But most of the time, I let silence conquer myself. I like to observe rather than talk.(: I do have own a car. Well, it is not my car it is my mother's car. >.<>KNOWLEDGE When I was young I didn't see this as something valuable for my life. Stupid me. My mother always told me ' better late than never '. but ma, Early is much more better than late and never. Yes my mother was right. Better change now before it is too
late. :)


Yes, I'm a gamer, a Hardcore gamer! I used to play games a lot. DoTA and Counter Strike is my current obsession. Luckily, I started to think about my future and now I'm trying to reduce my time playing games and started to focus on studies and reading books. Yeah, I need money to live even though money is not everything. :3


As you can see, My life is pretty much simple. I'm very grateful with what i have right now. Thank you Allah for giving me life. Problems will increase as we grow up. Like my English teacher said before "Problem is another word for life". Yes, problems and how we solve it are what make us mature. So people, enjoy and start to appreciate your life. Don't waste your life because you only live once. That is for the lame introduction. Haha, I hope I not bore you. (:


until next time.

Helmi,