Faith.Believe.Hope

I believe someday this hope will bring me to you and I never lost faith on you.

Inception

watched Inception yesterday. The movie was awesome. It twists your mind completely. dream inside a dream . I realized something, what if the world I live right now is a dream . Maybe i'm lying on the bed outside there waiting to wake up or something. I feel like I lost my senses everyday . Sometimes, I feel like my brain become weaker day by day. My head become heavier and cloudy. In scientific theory, I lack of oxygen and I think it is true because I can't breathe properly due to my favorite sickness all the time -flu. In mathematical theory , I need an equation to solve this problem but i haven't found the equation i needed.

If it is a dream please wake me up.

ohaiyo

I'm not abandon my blog. I have a lot things to say but I don't know where to start and I just don't know what to write. sorry . :(

Surrender

Go and fly like a bird. You are free now . enjoy every moments of your life. hope we will meet again someday .

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another "not happy" dreams this morning and evening : /

haihh

hushed nights inside heart

Do you know how it feels when you wake up and started missing the person you can't have?

Brain can't stop thinking and wondering and imagine , blood moving fast inside arteries, aorta carries and distributes oxygen rich blood, heart is pumping hard and harder, lungs expand and contract vigorously. You feel sad and lonely. sometimes, you smile because of memories but you still feel sad. The empty side inside your heart , some parts are crumbled down and some parts are still standing but fragile. That is hope. hoping something is nearly impossible.

When the heavy winds collided, you feel the pain. lungs expand and contract, heart is pumping slow and slower, blood moving slowly inside arteries and brain can't stop produce more memories to feed the pain. You feel like someone is pulling your heart's string every second. When you can't take it anymore you cry wishing the pain will go away.

This is how i felt every time i missed you.I infrequently crying outside but crying inside, always.

Just want to say Happy Thirty-two months sayang. I hope you are happy with your life. Take care, I love you so much. oh I miss you so much (:

until next time,

helmi.

smaller than ants

Appreciate small things.because from small things turn into big and bigger.